Madeleine Eames

- Psychotherapist
- Mindfulness Teacher

Share on facebook
Share on twitter
Share on email
Share on linkedin

The Biggest Killers of Your True Self

As I was mowing the lawn the other day I looked disparagingly at the clumps of plants and flowers cropping up everywhere, in comparison to our neighbours who seem to have a flawlessly uniform green blanket of a lawn. 

“Aggh, why do these things keep growing?” 

“This lawn looks like crap no matter what I do”.  (Which is not much, by the way).

Away went my inner dialogue with all the expectations and shoulds of what a lawn looks like if the owners are half decent.

Then I actually laughed out loud when I stopped and realized the absurdity of it. The so-called ‘weeds’ were actually beautiful little purple and yellow flowers sprouting up in the most perfect conditions. Who ever said what a lawn should look like? Who ever said we should have front and back green patches of grass around the structures called houses where we spend most of our time that protect us from the elements?

When you spread this realization out into the rest of our lives, it’s pretty profound. 

Who originally said we should work 9-5?

Why do we adhere to clothing rules?

Who said kids should go to college? Super successful and happy people often don’t.

Who even said we should strive to be happy?

‘I should be nice, good, stay at the same job, eat vegetables everyday, believe in this, have lots of friends, win, have a clean house… on and on’

Or even worse:  ‘They shouldn’t do that, be like that, say that, dress like that’ or probably the biggest time consumer and energy drainer: ‘that shouldn’t have happened’ or  ‘that better not happen!’.

These are all expectations of how we think our lives should go. They can also set us up to think we shouldn’t suffer and something is wrong if life doesn’t go our way. 

See how that keeps us in fear?

I know plenty of exceptions to all these rules. In fact, the people who come along and break these conditioned norms make huge contributions to the planet and create amazing things . They are also some of the most interesting people around. I LOVE when I see people expressing themselves in art, voice, taking a risk, putting it all on the line. 

But putting WHAT on the line? Failure? Embarrassment? Rejection?

These are not even things unless we name them as such. 

Think about that. They are not even things. But they are common fears of the ego, the small self who tries to keep us safe. 

There are a billion ways to live this life, and not one of them is wrong. 

If people tell you so, that is their small self speaking who is scared. 

Go on, notice all the invisible rules in your life. Are they your parent’s rules, your community’s, your old school teacher’s from 40 years ago?

These ‘should’ rules are the biggest killers of your true self. When put to rest, it isn’t chaos I promise you.

It is a widening, more expansive perspective that can free you from self doubt, inner criticism and living the life you are ‘supposed’ to live. 

Find examples of people who have followed their heart and you will soon see the impact they have on the world.

What one small ‘should’ can you let go of today?

Try doing the opposite.

I will be guiding a group through my online course ‘From Fear to Freedom’ this summer to overcome anxiety and start the fall with tool for freedom. Stay tuned for more info.

Love and freedom to all!


ps. I mowed around the clumps of flowers.. they were too pretty to destroy.


5 thoughts on “The Biggest Killers of Your True Self”

  1. This was amazing and serendipitous. I needed to read this today. I’m very interested in this summer course. Please let me know the dates when you know Madeleine (:

    • Love this Madeleine…i’m on the “let them grow” boat too! If not too personal, i’m curious what your stance is on woman shaving their legs!!? True or small mind? 😉

      • Mike, that is a god question. How do we tell what is what we want to do, and what is a learned, conditioned behaviour. The truth is, if we are aware that we always have free will, that we are making a choice to wear certain clothes, shave our legs, or any other habits and that is what we want, then that is coming from the true self. If we feel it’s a ‘should’, a ‘have-to’, then it is more based in the fear of the small self… who lives from fear. I hope that helps!


Leave a Comment

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Madeleine's Most Recent Posts

Panic Attacks: Avoiding the Messy Middle

  I was listening the other day to a story (I’m paraphrasing) about a woman who had a grumpy old neighbour. He squabbled about the noise, the fence, the street.. basically everything. One day she happened to be delivered his mail by mistake, and noticed a letter to him from

Read More »

Are You Resentful? Do This Right Away…

Hello Dear Readers,  Thank you for all the wonderful  replies on my last few posts. I read every single one of them as connection with those interested in this path is integral to me and my work. And honestly, (theme of last post) if this does not align with you,

Read More »

Honesty as Treatment for Pain and Suffering

“What’s wrong with a little white lie?”  You have probably heard that, or said it yourself. A little lie never hurt anyone. That might be true in some cases, and this is not a moralistic issue here, it’s a health issue.  We have ALL learned to lie. To ourselves, to

Read More »

The Journey of the Divine Feminine

As I enter my Crone years (a term used to describe the Queen who sits on her throne either in a cabin in the woods or in a castle or condo)  my focus is clearer on the journey that a woman takes during her short stint here on earth.  Feminine

Read More »

Subscribe For Peaceful Insights

Top Posts

Want To Know The Truth About Anxiety?

Madeleine’s Archived Posts